the truth...
okay i will post again ah .... since i am going to tell everyone something okays... well since i am going to say something let me say everything out okays... well just eat my "so called dinner " which is all so tasteless the whole day eat what also so tasteless so eat also like no eat de lor so what for eat must as well dont eat foreva right uh ? well since u ask me dont tell her why must u even tell me at first ah ? u think it funny to play ? well la i stupid la i idiotz la i dumb la can ? i dunno why must i know this at first izzit my fault by asking cannot know the truth meh ? huh so what i do is wrong na everything u do is right na u know our friendship have drifted apart alot ? it just cuz of 1 gurl we making all those arguement and shit thing right ? disturb than disturb lah like i care right u know what not i have not been sleeping at how this few days u know ? i also sleep at around 4am or 5am u know how it feel until going school still need study and somemore areadly so tired dont really want to think anymore but how can i ar when u keep saying saying saying no matter where i am in class ur sms come and everything u know what it is sad all to me ! i know u sad also lah cuz cant get her mah but u always blame on me u got think of my feeling mah how hurt it is to be always blame yala yala no matter where i am i will say to my friend this what from now yaya i know is my fault okays even in class okay u happy now right i dont even wanna know what u do it really make me for killing myself u know how it is to be laugh everyday when i either see u or not ? ya la i know u dont even know mah cuz u are not me mah right ? well dunno why keep getting hurt la and this feeling really suck okay u want try i let u lah see happy or not lah u know ??? even if i want do want is my problem must u care like everything u do i must know right ? than why u want know everything i do ar ? jealous ar ? u say i am the 1 that like her but actually no okay i got nothing to say but u say more hurtfull thing that are not suppose to say will make this more worst even if u dunwan to talk to me anymore or what also have to say la... i never encounter a friend like this before no matter what u read in my blog i dont care u want be my friend or not is ur problem le cuz i really wanna be happy like the pass cant i ?? i think i have been changing alot also u know cant even concentrate in class even in class friend talk to me i also dunno okay ... why cant be the last time adrian be back uh ? really wanna change back to my oldself u know but u keep making me no matter where i will think and i keep changing keep getting blame u know what it is to be hurt ? u want me try on u mah ? maybe is u never try before lah hor ? i also dun care la hor ... this all i want to say la below still got other thing bout my mei melissa okay...

No matter what u do please think carefully before u make ur choice everytime okay ? if u think i busybody or what i dont care cuz i just caring for u as my sister okay ? well u were just hurt recently dont wanna u get hurt by the guy in ur class this time cuz if u get hurt by him u will this be his classmate for like 3years uh than everybody in ur class will make u. tease u of everything u know if that really happen i also wont know how to help u cuz i not in your school okays plus somemore u gotta see him in class like almost everyday lor how u gonna take it uh if he keep saying things that hurt u to ur friends in class and than maybe how will u know ur friend will start to ignore u or what... well just remember kor will always be there for u ... if what i say to u in msn just now i really want to say sorry cuz i dint mean it was really very confuse at that time dint know what to say at all well... if i say i dont want be ur kor anymore u should know it fake how could we forget each other even if we are not kor and mei anymore ah ??? okay la if we not even friends or what right we will always remember each other mah so how to forget u since u have been my mei so long ah ? i also wonder why but i dunwan to make it happen okay ? i know u also will say the same thing right ? well this is all i wanna say bye...

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